Here's To New Dawns: Juno Jar Service Recap - September 15th, 2024
It's been a beautiful run! xo
Introduction & Review
Hello hello!
I come to you fresh off this beautiful rite, right as the time winds down for the election window at 9:17 AM local (Eastern) time, under the gorgeous energy of an airy grand trine, with Venus resplendent in her home of Libra.
I would be lying if I didn’t say I wasn’t a little eager, and a little relieved, for this to be the cherry on top of 7 years of Juno Jar magic. It is a joyful bon voyage and I am fully ready to move on to newer, different horizons, however uncertainty and scary.
Juno has always shown up for me when I have needed Her the most, and the Juno Jar service I did in May 2024 — which is being extended, through the addition of petitions today, until October 2025 — came exactly when my new little family needed the support the most. But. It became really clear to me (and affirmed by the fact that a long-time, successful participant said it felt different to her energetically), that it was time to let this go all the way to pasture.
I am a wildly, wildly different person than when I began, and that alone is a testament to its power beyond the cash, since I benefited directly from every rite. I discovered that I am a person who needs to work on the art of letting go because I want to, not because I am afraid, or because I’m being pummeled with fear, anxiety, and panic. I am finally someone (and becoming moreso every day) who moves towards my desires, rather than away from fear, pain, or rage. It felt incredibly apropos and auspicious to have the last mycelial blessing of Juno Jar magic come to life under the starry sparkle of Venus in Libra, bringing all of the spiritual labor, merit, love, and care I have poured into this work to full circle and harvest.
Below is a recap of the astrological notes Emily prepared for me — and you can find the classic Juno Jar Maintenance Guide PDF here (this is a G-Drive link)
Venus in Libra by Emily Sorlien
September 15th 2024 | 8:24am - 9:17am EST
Original write-up + introductory post found here.
Here’s To Many New Horizons
So, what’s next?
Well, once again getting this out of the way: I promised an expanded and updated version of the support guide which has been tentatively titled the Wealth + Power Playbook (a.k.a., the Maintenance Guide 2.0) Every single MFing time I have sat down to work on that, I’ve been diverted. I fully believe in the power of timing and trust that whenever I repeatedly get thrown off track with a project of a magical nature, there is a reason.
It turns out the reason this time ‘round is because I want to try my hand at teaching (eep!)
Since May, I have been in the process of transitioning out of almost 18 months of being completely without any supportive medical intervention: no exercise, dietary modifications, supplements, or medications. I had to do this in order to get an accurate assessment of chronic health issues that have been plaguing me for over a decade — and that, ultimately, appear to be connected to my status as a victim of the Flint Water Crisis in 2014. Because I did not have a formal lease (or MI state ID) at the time — I was couchsurfing, dealing with other trauma, and not in a position to advocate for myself — I did not qualify for any aid or financial reparations for the harm that has been done to me, and has compounded over the last 10 years. It has been, to put it bluntly, hell. I have also subsequently shared that prior to my initiation in October 2022, I was just as ill, and that I chose to do that ritual with just the aid of my Ancestors - going in completely ignorant of what awaited me - because I asked them to help me practice dying, because I was pretty sure my natural end was near. Now I feel like that faithful swan dive was not only about me being brave enough to receive the healing I needed, and wanted, but to have the resilience to allow my body to enter this terrible state, and to trust the village around me to still love and value me, even if I stopped “being useful.”
Everything I have accomplished, I have accomplished in spite of a tremendous amount of distress, trauma, obstacles, and burdens, and with the help of a wildly graceful, caring, loving village.
Everything that I am, is because someone chose to love me.
Everything that I will be, is because someone was excited to meet her.
Everything I have to give, is because someone gave to me.
The fact that I am not more significantly ill, that I did not die from the wounds that have been repeatedly and intentionally inflicted on me, and somehow - instead - birthed a new and beautiful life, is truly miraculous.
The fact that my life has blossomed from a state of abject despair, fear for my life, and abandonment, into one that has helped to set into motion manifold blessings for others, is something I secretly wished and pleaded for in my darkest moments.
Year over year, even when everything felt like it was falling apart and I was finally going to succumb, my former highest of highs have transitioned into becoming my lowest of lows. I owe everything to the gifts and boons being of service to myself has granted me, and for that, I am deeply thankful.
Thank you for being part of the journey.
I look forward to sharing the next chapter.
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